Lent should be a truly humbling experience especially when prayer, fasting, and almsgiving is done to the fullest extent. It sets aside meaningful time for meditation and reflection. In today’s Gospel, Jesus tells a parable of a tax collector and a pharisee. The pharisee is prideful and loathing over his good deeds while the tax collector can’t even bring himself to look up to God for he knows he is a sinner.
God knows everything about us and everything we have ever done, we are never not being watched. When we go to him in prayer, he wants us to bring our anguish, struggle, and concerns. A repentant heart will truly see the face of God in his heart and will allow him a cleaner outlook on life.
The man who fills his ego by making sure people hear about his good deeds is not going to be humble enough to repent and see the face of God in his heart. He will be left with an emptiness that only humility and God can fill.
Do not be afraid to bring yourself to God, ask him for his abundant mercy and to teach you how to humble yourself. He will send the Holy Spirit to guide you. It is mercy that our heart desires.